Those of you who followed my blog regularly, even though my posts were sporadic at best, may have noticed my absence from the blogging community. Since my last post on June 18th, 2017, which was slated to be a 2-part post, I’ve been on hiatus. Though it was never my intention to stay away this long, some things just cannot be helped (Shoganai)
First of all, THANK YOU for all those who reached out to me via WordPress, Twitter, Instagram, and e-mail to check on me and keep in touch. I never imagined such positive, supportive, and authentic relationships would develop from blogging.
To summarize my absence, I was taking a break to reconnect with myself. Do you know those voices inside us– meant to alert, criticize, and motivate us? Well, after an unsuccessful switch in anxiety medicine, my inner critic began screaming to be heard, oft times drowning out the voices that serve to inspire me. Naturally, this left me feeling exhausted and unmotivated.
Weekend plans with friends became a struggle; coming together out of obligation rather than enjoyment. Faithfully watching and blogging about anime series, once a fulfilling experience, was approached as an enduring chore. As this depressive state began to leech into all aspects of my life, I knew that it was time to be “selfish” — to focus on me.
The last six months have brought changes in my life. Having always been a bubbly, positive extrovert (with social anxiety) my whole life, this sudden, solemn shift in my behavior left people in my life confused. As a result, some friendships, that I highly valued, diminished over time. With that said, those left in my life rose to support me– even when I came across as disagreeable, unsympathetic, or unkind- and for that I am grateful.
There were more positive changes too. First, I was reminded that when I need support, my husband, WeekendOtaku, is an unshakable pillar of strength whom I can depend upon for anything. Through this experience, he has maintained a patience that would rival a Buddhist monk. Knowing how emotionally difficult I have been, I cannot thank him enough for his unconditional love. A reminder to those reading this– marry your best friend (you won’t regret it.)
I’ve learned too that it is absolutely okay to be “selfish” and reconnect with yourself. Now, I am no longer afraid to ask for help, or a bit of understanding, from those who cherish me as much as I do them. From the ani-blogging community, I’ve discovered that there are people in this world, whom you may never meet, that you can still develop a lasting connection with. Those are the people who embraced me when I first became a blogger and continued to check in with me even when I wasn’t active. This means, to me, that it isn’t about the amount of posts, comments, or likes I leave for you, but about the friendship we’ve formed by bonding over shared interests.
Going forward, I plan to be more active in the ani-community. Whether it be commenting on your posts and/or creating my own content. It will take time to get back into the swing of things, so please be patient with me. To everyone who is still following me — thank you again ❤
January 29, 2018 at 6:24 pm
No need to thank, Kimmie. ^.^ We are all here for you and we all care about you a lot! ❤ ❤ Thank you @WeekendOtaku for taking care of Kimmie!!
I'm glad that you're planning on being more active. I can't wait to see your future posts. 🙂
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January 30, 2018 at 12:06 am
Thanks Rose for the continuous support. I am looking forward to seeing all your cute cosplay and yummy food posts. >^.^<
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January 29, 2018 at 8:12 pm
Well…as I already said yesterday: it was awesome to see a comment appearing again from you. Also…I would like to say that this is a very brave post to write. You share something very personal here, and not everyone would be able to do that. I for one am very happy that you are back😊😊 Glad to read you are doing somewhat better as well…take care, and say hi to WeekendOtaku for me 😊😊
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January 30, 2018 at 12:05 am
Michel! I am so glad you came into our lives. You are such a positive person and I truly appreciate your words of kindness; especially when I’m having crummy days. It is difficult to talk about these sorts of things at times but I thought it best to give context to my absence. Thank you again for all your support. I look forward to your future posts.
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January 29, 2018 at 8:13 pm
Kimmie, sounds like you needed the time and I’m glad Weekend was there for you. While it is great that you are back be sure you look out for you.
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January 29, 2018 at 11:59 pm
Thanks Karandi. I often asked Weekend about how you were, since you two talk more frequently. I’m glad to be back and look forward to reading your posts too.
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January 30, 2018 at 2:01 am
Thanks for sharing something so personal. I am glad to see you’re back. Don’t forget you have friends you can turn to and rely on.
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January 30, 2018 at 3:22 am
Thanks Remy. It is nice to be back, to be sure, and I look forward to reading your posts.
Despite the present situation, I will keep in mind that I do have friends to rely on.
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January 30, 2018 at 3:01 pm
I am glad to here from you.
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January 30, 2018 at 9:56 pm
Take your time and welcome back :3
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February 1, 2018 at 9:12 pm
Thank you so much! I will do just that
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January 30, 2018 at 11:59 pm
Welcome back, but take your time and take breaks if needed. 🙂
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February 1, 2018 at 9:13 pm
Thank you. I truly appreciate it.
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February 2, 2018 at 1:45 am
Anytime!! 🙂
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February 5, 2018 at 6:25 am
Aw, I didn’t realize you were going through so much! I did try my best to keep in contact as you and weekend are a a few of my faves here in the blogging community. I’m glad you took the time to reconnect with yourself. We all need that you know? *hugs* looking forward to seeing you around more often! 🙂
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